Falling in Love

Falling…In Love. 

It just happened. I didn’t see it coming. 

It was like cupid was staring right into my heart. 

The heart that I thought was full of darkness.

I tried to fight it. Do I still try to fight it? 

Absolutely. Am I going to let myself fall? 

My brain has what feels like thousands of thoughts, 

running a million miles a minute.

Who would have thought someone can think of so many things?

So many things that can go wrong.  

But can also go right. 

I’ve known you for what feels like an eternity. 

But we only just met two years ago. 

You make me feel like I can conquer the world. 

When I have a rough and long day, you’re there. 

You always put a smile on my face. 

Even when I feel like I’m drowning, 

You give me the strength to pull up for air. 

You. You’re the air that fills my lungs when they feel like they’re full of water.

I never thought that I would ever find you. 

I used to crave the drowning feeling. 

Because it made me feel something. 

But now you, you make me feel everything. 

It’s your laugh. Your smile. 

The way your cheeks blush when I tell you how proud I am of you.

It’s the way your hands explore me. 

I think that may be my favorite part. It used to not be. 

You changed that and I don’t think I can ever let that go. 

Nor will I ever want to. 

Your love has me falling asleep and waking up with a smile on my face.

I used to wake up with my eyes all wet. I used to cry all the time. 

I rarely ever had the strength to push through. I used to push everyone away.

I even tried to push you away. You gave me my space. 

You didn’t pressure me. You let me be me. 

Thank you for that. I don’t think anyone has ever done what I asked. 

They always would push and push until I just gave in. 

You always have this way of getting me to open up. 

In my own time. No matter what. It’s just another thing to add to the list. 

This list grows more and more each day. As does my heart. 

I never knew love can feel like this. Like I’m on top of the world. 

With someone always being my #1. 

I didn’t trust myself to let go enough. I was too scared.

Too scared that I would crash and burn. That I would lose you.

I was terrified of falling so deep in love that it would break me. 

Break me so much that I’d be gasping for air. 

Slowly having my lungs fill with water.

Here I am…letting go. Trusting myself completely. 

I know if I fall, you will be there to catch me. 

My lungs won’t fill with water. 

You are the air. You fill my heart with so much love. 

Love I didn’t think existed. 

It just happened. I didn’t see it coming. 

Cupid shot their arrow right through my heart.

The heart that was dark, not full of light.

I tried to fight it. Do I still try to fight it? 

Not at all. I let myself fall.